I am hurting so much from caring.
I do not want to care anymore, I just want to be selfish.
Am I being selfish?
Am I being a cry baby?
I don't know about any of that, but I do know that everyday I am hurt because I do not know who I am. I do not know how to treat people the way God wants them treated. I do not know how to love in a way that brings life instead of this feeling of hopelessness.
I feel undeserving of love and the more I press forward, the more I believe I will never be loved.
I do not feel man enough to be loved, even by my own mother or friends. I do not feel like I will ever do anything correctly. I do not know what to do.....quitting is not an option but I am so weary.
(Now I suspect that some of you will think I am depressed or overreacting, but I assured you that this is reality for me and you cannot argue with my reality)
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